Part 2

(Flashback to December 5th…)

Oh gosh y’all what a ride I went on this night 😂 oh boy was I not ready for that ride I went on but it happened haha.

Not sure how much my father would want me to post about but he did give me permission to state this. He was admitted into the hospital last night due to something called T.I.A aka a mini stroke. I had to call an ambulance at 10pm, due to the fact that I live across town, and I wanted the ambulance to get to him first. So that’s where my dad’s friend, my boyfriend, and I spent most of the night at last night. With my father in the Er til 2am until they decide to keep him overnight. What a lovely way to end December 4th and my week, right?

But! December 5th is here now and we are going to be as positive as one can be. It’s the start of a new week for me. I need a big reset for sure. Reset, meaning:

1. Household chores

2. Goal setting

3. The gym (if I get to it with him being in the hospital)

4. Finish my wash day routine

5. Grocery shop and cook dinner

Dad is still in the hospital, staying another night as well. We’ve got a lot of lifestyle changes to make together. I told him that I’d definitely be interested in working with him on his health, and after the scare we had last night, I want to work on mine. So, with that being said, we’ll both be making some changes for sure.

I also got my nails done by one of my friends, Kiah! She’s really good at her job and I rather support her small business than go to the nail salon for a manicure. Don’t get me wrong, I love a good nail salon pedicure! I went for the first time in while, two weeks ago, and LOVED being pampered like that! And my feet have never felt that smooth before! Jk 😉 maybe they have but that last pedicure was top tier! 10/10!

But other than thats, that’s my BLOGMAS Pt.2! 🎅🎄❄️☃️Not much else happened other than staying with my dad at the hospital for the afternoon and making sure to keep him company. I love you all and hoping you’re enjoying the holidays! Let’s get jolly!!

(December 6th-December 11th)

TRIGGER WARNING!!! I do get sappy, emotional, and sort of dark here.

Now, I really had no idea that this past week would be the way it was. My dad took a turn for the worst, multiple trips to Grand Haven (twice a day some of the days) to see and be with my dad to get update on his health, my boyfriend had some bad news come up (life changing bad news), lots, oh gosh, lots of crying, emotions everywhere, only got to the gym once this week, at least I got a Yoga class in, and I’m also on house/dog sitting duty this week. Lots of things have caused this social media silence that I’ve had this past week.

I really don’t even want to say this😞😓but I’m sure I had a depression episode because I’ve had NO motivation to do anything this past week. I canceled plans on friends. I HAVEN’T READ MY BIBLE until this morning or even read a book, which y’all know is weird since Colleen Hoover took over my life last month!! I also just got my appetite back yesterday and lost it back on like December 5th or 6th. I wasn’t really eating anything. I haven’t watched T.V. I’ve only been on socials to update about my dad’s condition, or maybe to like or heart a post but I haven’t done much else. I clearly haven’t blogged, which sucks because I was on such a good streak. I constantly felt like I needed attention or company to keep me some what happy and from crying out of no where. It has just been one thing after another. Bad after bad, after bad, after bad. And yet, I’m still standing. I’m still here. By the grace of God. I’m. Still. Standing. I’m. Still. Here. 🤌🏾🤍

God doesn’t put us through anything we can’t handle and I am proof. I’m still standing and handling everything I’m going through because God is with me.

God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it.

1 Corinthians 10:13

I tried to be as positive as I could be this week. I went to Yoga and the gym because I knew I needed both at least once this week. I tried to keep myself doing things unless I knew it was time for a “me-time break” because I have really been listening to my body and mind and paying attention to when I do need to…not isolate but be alone. And I know this sounds backwards BUT when I get like this, this emotional and upset, I need to be with just myself or someone I choose to be around, to regroup and remain in good spirits. I do that because I don’t want any outside conversations to get too into my head about things, I just need to be with myself and God. It’s also because my brain hardly shuts up or off, so being alone helps me have some peace and quiet. It’s different from when I need attention or company, because there were times where as much as I wanted to be “alone”, I knew I couldn’t handle the aloneness so I’m glad I had my support system with me at my disposal.

But as each of those days past, the 6th, the 7th, the 8th, the 9th and so on, I got better and better. I am in deep, deep prayer with God, asking Him guide and be with me during this hard week/time, and asking for help with any battle I face or thrown at me, and He has helped me prevail and regroup. Today was the first day where I caught back up in the Bible in the Book of Luke. This morning I read chapters 6-9 and I plan on catching up on chapters 10-11 to catch up with todays date. Which is the 11th.

I wanted to post this big realization post but this is what really happened for BLOGMAS PT. 2 🎅🎄❄️and I want to be as transparent and personable/relatable as I can be. This week was an emotional rollercoaster. It for sure had it’s ups and downs, maybe even more downs than I wanted but God was with me and is with. I’m putting, or have put, ALL my trust in God and Jesus Christ. I want them to be with and guide through these trials and tribulations. I have been put to the test and I feel as if I’m passing said test thus far.

I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.

Philippians 4:11–13

With all of that being said, here is your proof that no matter what you are being put through or happening to you, that God is with you, being there for you, and being near you. So, do as I have and lean on Him. That’s the only reason, I feel I have made it through this week.

I had a hard reset in some way today, so I’m counting today as a new week. Let this week be filled with grace and many, many blessings. Thank you to everyone being there for me throughout this messy week. Thank you God for keeping your arms around my Dad and also around my boyfriend and I as we go through this life changing lesson together as a couple.

Please follow me throughout my journey, because it’s a real one❤️ I am begging and praying that next year…I thrive and grow from this month. Follow the blog and Instagram (link below)!!!! I love you all and I apologize for my silence. Let’s make this week a jolly great one!

And that’s the TEE👩🏾‍💻💙☕️

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