thankful – And That's The TEE

Part 2

(Flashback to December 5th…)

Oh gosh y’all what a ride I went on this night 😂 oh boy was I not ready for that ride I went on but it happened haha.

Not sure how much my father would want me to post about but he did give me permission to state this. He was admitted into the hospital last night due to something called T.I.A aka a mini stroke. I had to call an ambulance at 10pm, due to the fact that I live across town, and I wanted the ambulance to get to him first. So that’s where my dad’s friend, my boyfriend, and I spent most of the night at last night. With my father in the Er til 2am until they decide to keep him overnight. What a lovely way to end December 4th and my week, right?

But! December 5th is here now and we are going to be as positive as one can be. It’s the start of a new week for me. I need a big reset for sure. Reset, meaning:

1. Household chores

2. Goal setting

3. The gym (if I get to it with him being in the hospital)

4. Finish my wash day routine

5. Grocery shop and cook dinner

Dad is still in the hospital, staying another night as well. We’ve got a lot of lifestyle changes to make together. I told him that I’d definitely be interested in working with him on his health, and after the scare we had last night, I want to work on mine. So, with that being said, we’ll both be making some changes for sure.

I also got my nails done by one of my friends, Kiah! She’s really good at her job and I rather support her small business than go to the nail salon for a manicure. Don’t get me wrong, I love a good nail salon pedicure! I went for the first time in while, two weeks ago, and LOVED being pampered like that! And my feet have never felt that smooth before! Jk 😉 maybe they have but that last pedicure was top tier! 10/10!

But other than thats, that’s my BLOGMAS Pt.2! 🎅🎄❄️☃️Not much else happened other than staying with my dad at the hospital for the afternoon and making sure to keep him company. I love you all and hoping you’re enjoying the holidays! Let’s get jolly!!

(December 6th-December 11th)

TRIGGER WARNING!!! I do get sappy, emotional, and sort of dark here.

Now, I really had no idea that this past week would be the way it was. My dad took a turn for the worst, multiple trips to Grand Haven (twice a day some of the days) to see and be with my dad to get update on his health, my boyfriend had some bad news come up (life changing bad news), lots, oh gosh, lots of crying, emotions everywhere, only got to the gym once this week, at least I got a Yoga class in, and I’m also on house/dog sitting duty this week. Lots of things have caused this social media silence that I’ve had this past week.

I really don’t even want to say this😞😓but I’m sure I had a depression episode because I’ve had NO motivation to do anything this past week. I canceled plans on friends. I HAVEN’T READ MY BIBLE until this morning or even read a book, which y’all know is weird since Colleen Hoover took over my life last month!! I also just got my appetite back yesterday and lost it back on like December 5th or 6th. I wasn’t really eating anything. I haven’t watched T.V. I’ve only been on socials to update about my dad’s condition, or maybe to like or heart a post but I haven’t done much else. I clearly haven’t blogged, which sucks because I was on such a good streak. I constantly felt like I needed attention or company to keep me some what happy and from crying out of no where. It has just been one thing after another. Bad after bad, after bad, after bad. And yet, I’m still standing. I’m still here. By the grace of God. I’m. Still. Standing. I’m. Still. Here. 🤌🏾🤍

God doesn’t put us through anything we can’t handle and I am proof. I’m still standing and handling everything I’m going through because God is with me.

God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it.
1 Corinthians 10:13

I tried to be as positive as I could be this week. I went to Yoga and the gym because I knew I needed both at least once this week. I tried to keep myself doing things unless I knew it was time for a “me-time break” because I have really been listening to my body and mind and paying attention to when I do need to…not isolate but be alone. And I know this sounds backwards BUT when I get like this, this emotional and upset, I need to be with just myself or someone I choose to be around, to regroup and remain in good spirits. I do that because I don’t want any outside conversations to get too into my head about things, I just need to be with myself and God. It’s also because my brain hardly shuts up or off, so being alone helps me have some peace and quiet. It’s different from when I need attention or company, because there were times where as much as I wanted to be “alone”, I knew I couldn’t handle the aloneness so I’m glad I had my support system with me at my disposal.

But as each of those days past, the 6th, the 7th, the 8th, the 9th and so on, I got better and better. I am in deep, deep prayer with God, asking Him guide and be with me during this hard week/time, and asking for help with any battle I face or thrown at me, and He has helped me prevail and regroup. Today was the first day where I caught back up in the Bible in the Book of Luke. This morning I read chapters 6-9 and I plan on catching up on chapters 10-11 to catch up with todays date. Which is the 11th.

I wanted to post this big realization post but this is what really happened for BLOGMAS PT. 2 🎅🎄❄️and I want to be as transparent and personable/relatable as I can be. This week was an emotional rollercoaster. It for sure had it’s ups and downs, maybe even more downs than I wanted but God was with me and is with. I’m putting, or have put, ALL my trust in God and Jesus Christ. I want them to be with and guide through these trials and tribulations. I have been put to the test and I feel as if I’m passing said test thus far.

I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.
Philippians 4:11–13

With all of that being said, here is your proof that no matter what you are being put through or happening to you, that God is with you, being there for you, and being near you. So, do as I have and lean on Him. That’s the only reason, I feel I have made it through this week.

I had a hard reset in some way today, so I’m counting today as a new week. Let this week be filled with grace and many, many blessings. Thank you to everyone being there for me throughout this messy week. Thank you God for keeping your arms around my Dad and also around my boyfriend and I as we go through this life changing lesson together as a couple.

Please follow me throughout my journey, because it’s a real one❤️ I am begging and praying that next year…I thrive and grow from this month. Follow the blog and Instagram (link below)!!!! I love you all and I apologize for my silence. Let’s make this week a jolly great one!

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Today’s My Friday!

I can’t really say I feel overloaded with work, even though I’ve gotten a lot done for work. However, I do not seem overwhelmed at this new job and with my new position. Everything is super laid back for me right now, and I couldn’t be more thankful about that. I know once I’m not remote, and go back to the center, I will be jammed with work and it’ll feel non-stop or never-ending, so, that’s why I’m glad this taking this time slowly, and enjoying not being needed with such great demand.

With all that being said, I’m glad today is technically my Friday, and I couldn’t be more excited to eat a lot of great food tomorrow. I also am excited for some Black Friday shopping as well. I should probably check on what time the stores open and what not, lol I have not yet done that. Add to the to-do list, Tee!

Speaking of things to do, I have two different blog posts in the draft folders for y’all. A book review on “It Starts With Us” by Colleen Hoover, and a short story, written by myself. First of all, let’s just chat about Colleen Hoover. She is an amazing author. Her books are outstandingly great to read, and suck you in just right. I cried for all three of the books I’ve read of hers, and I promise you, I know a lot of people that have done the same. Honestly, both my friends that read her books let me know before I read each, that I was most likely going to cry while reading. I’ll save the rest of my thoughts for the review but just know the three I’ve read so far are 10/10! Definitely recommend. On the other hand, my short story, is coming along pretty good. I call it a Holiday Mystery for now because I don’t want to share the title just yet. But, the genre is something I’ve never really explored writing before, so I’m taking my time with it. It will be short, but I want enough detail to make sure it does end well, and the conflict get’s resolved in some sort of way that ending it, will make sense to my readers.

To Be Thankful For

Not to switch topics so harshly but moving on, I want to discuss what I’m really thankful, hence the holiday tomorrow.

Y’all know how much I talk about my amazing boyfriend but it’s because I cannot get enough of him, and talking about him to others, because, y’all…I am beyond lucky to have someone so caring, understanding, and mindful on my side, by my side, and my other half. You know? It’s so great to just not have to worry about anything going wrong, and if they do, we resolve it…QUICK! We do not let things go unresolved, ever! And at first, that terrified me because I was so used to that being the normal. Unresolved. No closure. No answers. That was my norm, and now it’s not. That in itself, has done wonders for our relationship, and I’m not saying everyone’s has to be like or that’s what a “real” relationship should be like, but that’s how OUR relationship is, and I love that about us. I have way too much anxiety to let things sit over night, it’ll drive me crazy and he knows that. So, we don’t let it happen. Is it hard, yeah sure, but I rather it be hard in that moment then on and on for weeks. You get me? Okay, let’s move on. The best thing about this man is that he really, really loves discussing our future together, and I love that so much. My anxiety about the future has lessened a ton thanks to him, because we frequently talk about it, and what it’ll be like, and what we want. See the key word here? We. It’s great to discuss thing as we, because it reassures me that, we, are going to be in this together. Now, God has his plans for us both, whether that is for us to be together in the end, I have no clue, but I will say this, if God gave me Landon, as a stepping stone in my life, to push me in His direction, then thank you God, I’d do this over and over again if that means Landon is in my life again, even if it were for only a period of time. I’d do it all again. Why? Because not only do I love, I am in love with him, and care for him so deeply, that I’d want to experience this again. Not only that, I have grown soooo much thanks to him building me up, showing me the love I deserve, and protecting me. Basically, I love him til the end of time, and that’ll always be the truth.
I am very thankful for my family and friends. They all know how much they mean to me, and they know who I’m talking about so I don’t need to go into too much detail, but I will say, I’m the most thankful that God has really turned my dad and I’s relationship around for the good. Not to get too personal, because I’m not really ready to share all of that on here just yet. And I don’t want to jinx myself, but the last three encounters with my dad has been the best in a very long time. And the people that know this, know this already, but I am very thankful that it has been the best because before it wasn’t and that destroyed me. So I’m thankful that things are taking a turn for the good, finally.
I am thankful for myself. I say that because I’ve come such, such a long way that I could cry at how much I’ve accomplished this far into my life. 25 years. I’ve lived that long and somehow managed to get this far in life. I have a great job, great boyfriend, a place to stay, a nice car, family and friends, this blog, and a lot more. I’m doing really great for myself and I couldn’t be more proud of myself about this. My birthday is next month, the 27th to be exact and I’m so excited for the year 26, and all I’ll accomplish then! STAY TUNED! It might just be a great one, I can feel it!

Thank you ALL, for reading! Enjoy your Thanksgiving, whether it’s with family, friends, coworkers, anything, anyone, or if it’s just gonna be you, enjoy it. I pray that everyone have the best day, and enjoy this time off, this break! I will see y’all on Friday! I am taking tomorrow off! Love you! Bye!

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BLOGMAS!!!